I wonder if accidentally I haven't planned to be far and alone
thus it could restrain the damage of my death
it may have a less impact upon people
I can't live, you know.
I will kill myself someday
because that's what I said I would do
nothing will change in my mind this is settled
the remain question is: when?
or how can I do it without hurting those around me?
nobody will understand
most of the time I am quite sure it's not today
but there are some days, I can clearly see the damage my life makes
and it's simple need to end. I could end, not without killing
then I wish I could die without killing myself.
I would like to just die..
I'm almost sure about that I may be able of making my unconscious accept dying
then I won't be doing anything wrong.
