Thursday, December 29, 2022

Am I emotional unavailable?
don't think twice
could I afford the friends with benefits status? 
would my personality be on the way?
people say I can't do that
what do they know?
how much do they know me?

I'm new person everyday.
I want to make it easy. Can you easy my mind?
I won't be disruptive, not this time.
letting it pass through.. 

Complexity rising

Wednesday, November 16, 2022

Last evening

She came to my place, I have forgiven them, she talked as we have just spoken.
She felt comfortable there, on the couch, I could see it.
Opening the fridge, pouring herself some beer.
I wouldn't ever be against that. 

Then, she said that her friend would spit on my grave, better said her friend would  give a hateful remark whenever someone mentioned my name. 

I got to admit, I got uneasy not surprised though. 
I know myself, what a shame, they don't. What am I ashamed of? 

Should I be responsible for other people contempt
No one can be loved by everyone, all the time. that's truth.
How much truth holds on that comment? 

I got uncomfortable. I'm always trying to please everyone.
I've said bullocks to avoid some understanding. 
Honestly, it didn't flabbergast me her friend's opinion, yet made me sad.

Why should I care if someone who hasn't been part of my life for more than a decade wish me bad.
Isn't it one's intention under someone else judgments?
At the end of the day, those were last night visitor's words.
Unkind.

Tuesday, April 19, 2022

How is your life?

It's been a standard 52-card deck
with beautiful art on few cards
the rest of them
are numbered red or black
nothing special

Some people would get impressed
using these to make magic
Others rather disappointed
might even lose
when playing with it

I'd like to make my house
but I can easily foresee 
strong winds blowing it down