Monday, July 27, 2020

“In all the edifices of thought, I have found no category on which to rest my head. Whereas Chaos—there's a pillow!”



“Only optimists commit suicide, optimists who no longer succeed at being optimists. The others, having no reason to live, why would they have any to die?” (Emil Cioran)

Emil Cioran — Um Apátrida Metafísico I | by Luciano Machado Tomaz ...
"In every man sleeps a prophet, and when he wakes there is a little more evil in the world.”(Emil Cioran)
“I understood the non-sense of every gesture, every effort…I wanted to defend myself against all men, react against their madness, discover its source; I listened and I saw – and I was afraid: afraid of acting for the same reasons or for any reason, of believing in the same phantoms or in any other phantom, of letting myself be intoxicated in the same way or in any other way; afraid, finally, of sharing a common delirium and expiring in a crowd of ecstasies…It is troubling to think that…all sink into lying because they do not suspect the equivalence, in nullity, of pleasures and of truths.”(Emil Cioran)
“Tears do not burn except in solitude.”(Emil Cioran)
“Nobody would dare look at himself in the mirror, because a grotesque, tragic image would mix in the contours of his face with stains and traces of blood, wounds which cannot be healed, and unstoppable streams of tears. I would experience a kind of voluptuous awe if I could see a volcano of blood, eruptions as red as fire and as burning as despair, burst into the midst of the comfortable and superficial harmony of everyday life, or if I could see all our hidden wounds open, making of us a bloody eruption forever. Only then would we truly understand and appreciate the advantage of loneliness, which silences our suffering and makes it inaccessible. The venom drawn out from suffering would be enough to poison the whole world in a bloody eruption, bursting out of the volcano of our being. There is so much venom, so much poison, in suffering!”(Emil Cioran)
“If I were to be totally sincere, I would say that I do not know why I live and why I do not stop living. The answer probably lies in the irrational character of life which maintains itself without reason.”(Emil Cioran)

“Knowledge subverts love: in proportion as we penetrate our secrets, we come to loathe our kind, precisely because they resemble us.”(Emil Cioran)
“The fact that life has no meaning is a reason to live –moreover, the only one.”(Emil Cioran)

E.M. Cioran e os Silogismos da Amargura - Isso CompensaIsso Compensa
Emil Cioran was a Romanian philosopher and essayist, who published works in both Romanian and French. His work has been noted for its pervasive philosophical pessimism, and frequently engages with issues of suffering, decay, and nihilism. (Wikipedia)

Wednesday, July 08, 2020

hidden verses

Never be no sunshine, it's gonna always be rain
Honey, you goin' to want me to come back again
Never be no sunshine, it's gonna always be rain
You never gave me no lovin'
That's why I'm goin' away

You called me yo honey
Spent all o' my money
And you think that's funny?
That's why I'm going away

(That's why I'm going away - Elizabeth Cotten)

Monday, July 06, 2020

   I have told her that our lives were perfect 
                         despite my work and desire 
                                       to travel the world
she can not see my problems as being hers
                               and I am married alone

I carry this burden which is not a person 
                          or creature or obligation 
                                     I carry an idea of
            completeness that drains my soul
                             
                            locking me in shadows
                                    blocking my light

I see her 
in the night
the pain of rejection
I saw her falling for her oppressor
being merciful to someone that is external
and projecting her goodness on this monster

         now her monster and herself are reflection in the glass
                 such a thin glass made for break but she is unable
                                                    She is waiting for a miracle

I see her 
as bright as day
all of her motivation 
which can get things done and be happy
about it the child smile and close attention
She is part of spring when let things grow
She is capable of wonderful garden full of roses

             and the smell and safe feeling of standing around
surround by smiles respected
   admiring moments of peace
                                                                   my love is mine
                                                                    and I can share

I love her with the bottom of my heart
     but she seems an impossible dream
                         
                        she does not let me fly 
                         she allows me to sing


How could I say now, honey, I can't stay with you if I can't go
well, hadn't I just said?